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wow. just wow. [20 Aug 2010|11:36pm]
So here I am, 33 now and trying not to write like I'm still fucking 18 years old.  I actually did fuck an 18 year old.    Anyway, reading all my old posts, man.  Funny, not much has changed.  I once again found myself hanging out with drama seeking idiots and once again, find that my peace only comes when I stay home and spend time with loved ones.   Oh my profile picture...how I have missed that young face.   LOL @ <3 my manwhore.  Translation: "love my pretend manwhore that never gave me the time of day."   This one is going in the history books for sure.
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myspace.com [19 Feb 2005|08:42pm]
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OMG! [13 Oct 2004|07:34pm]
Look who's back, YAYAYYYYYYY!!!! Alright, all my online buddies are out of sight now and that basically sucks cuz I MISSSS THEM!!! Alright, sensitive moment over, time to get serious.

God I feel like such a bitch sometimes. I find myself critisizing all these insecure, ridiculous women who need men to validate their lives, without even realizing my owns errors in the past. You know, at least I learned alot from my mistakes. It cost me alot of good friends, which in that respect cost me a fortune.

I realized how hard it is to find friends who can laugh at farts and giggle like evil japanese children when people fall on their dumbass. I really enjoy that! I'm a total goofball, and I find it aggitating to be around people who have their noses up god's ass.

HOLLY! I miss you! How dare you get a life and not write to me anymore! *giggle* I miss you grrrl!!!

Oh, and guys, I'm a whore, I deserved your abandonment, your not my nurse, and every fucked up thing that happened in my life was nobody's fault but my own. I hope you told your girlfriends I'm just a no good crazy bar whore that has nothing better to do with my time than to make other people's life a living hell. I swear I'm not crazy, just brain achingly stupid sometimes.

By the way, my spelling ability is slowing escaping me.
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Yo [24 Nov 2003|11:33pm]
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what? [07 Nov 2003|10:29pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

Weird, I'm just here surfing the net listening to Born Slippy so why not update. For the first time ever I'm actually taking a vacation. Well I should say this is the first time I'm taking a break and have a job to come back to. Now that I have all this free time I'm trying to delegate what I wanna do. I've always wanted to go snowboarding, but than again i may do something realistic like go to the beach and hang out.

Its been about eight months since I moved out and god damnit I never felt better. It feels good to be away from drama and revert back to a normal life. I guess I was really desperate to get out of here and I didn't care to what situation nor to whom I moved out with that I ended up with a complete pshycho. I no longer remain in contact with my former roomate and I hope it stay that way. I find it very interesting at how many friends disappear once your broke and can't party anymore. Those whom I considered friends are nowhere to be seen nowadays, so I spend alot of time with my family and my surroundings.

So anyways now that i've bored you I'll go hug a tree.


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a painful realization [05 Oct 2003|09:38pm]
Churches Chicken does indeed suck.
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can someone... [21 Aug 2003|09:07pm]
..please explain to me what's happening to wrestling??? WTF???!!! I just saw Brock beat some one-legged wonder into a bloody pulp in front of his mom. UGH!!! And what's this I hear about Eric Bishcunt in a simulated rape scene? Not only does the thought of him naked mentally paralyze me, but since when is this supposed to be entertaining? Somebody fill me in on what's going on here?!
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hello hello [27 Jul 2003|09:25pm]
Saw Tomb Raider today...two words: Gerard Butler. My eyes were just fixated on that gorgeous man so I couldn't even tell you what I thought of the movie. But Angelina rocks as always. Can't wait to see S.W.A.T, that's for sure. Not only is Collin Ferrel starring but I have to pleasure of seeing Oliver Martinez as well. Double whammy's for me, YESSSSS!!!! Which brings me to this, I heard that Oliver will be playing Gambit aka Remy Lebeau in the next X-Men. How perfect! That means I get Hugh and Oliver, OH HELL YES!!!!

What else, what else...my latest obsession on the PS2 is Kingdom Hearts. I know what you may be thinking; how fun could a RPG be when Donald and Goofy are my counterparts BE to a grownup? Very entertaining, and perhaps the cutest game PS has EVER invented. The collaboration with Square characters and Disney seemed a bit cheesy to me at first but as I started playing I couldn't put it down...its not so bad revisiting your childhood by flying through Neverland with Peter Pan and kicking it at Aladin's pad...I didn't like the Merman bit, but giving Ursula a can of whoop ass made up for it.

Well, now that my life has reverted back to the mundane and boring, I think I'll go to bed early and read boho literature.

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*snicker* [02 Jul 2003|07:35pm]
Hi Carina. Ha ha. ;)
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oh my starry eye surprise [19 Jun 2003|06:26pm]
Yo. I see the internet hasn't changed much; I'm still getting emails from Silicone Sally not to mention "Enlarge your Penis" spam, Mike Vitar fans are growing by the hundreds, Yahoo! is even more gay, AOL still sucks my ass, and the online diary trend has still not faded out. Why do people do this? Why do I DO THIS?! I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! What am I talking about? I guess I'm desperately trying to fill up space here.

Work is just...super duper swell! I got a tremendous one dollar raise, with the addition of even more work, my co-worker gets paid for sick days and she's only been there two months. (I've been there almost a year and not only have I not gotten a fucking DIME when I was out sick, but my boss makes it a point to call me ten times a day to make sure I'm there. NICE!)

Ricky Rachtman is back on MTV hosting Headbangers Ball. (YESSSS!!!) Wrestling still sucks, and wow I'm listening to "Uptown Girl" right now.
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soul trash [18 Apr 2003|10:02pm]
Oy! I have updated once again! Shut up Holly. Anywho what's been going on lately? Alot actually. I moved back home because I've finally decided my roomate is a nut case and I would rather climb walls at my parents house than to hear another session of ugly sex in the next room.

Things aren't that bad actually. My parents have loosened up a bit on the rules of the house, so I've got a little more breathing room. I've put a hold on my dating life at this moment but I am still hopelessy devoted to my one partner in crime Rubes. Talk about two peas in a pod. As different as our backgrounds may be, we are both soul-threatening creatures with personal ethics and beliefs that only suits the contradictions of our elite yet conventional circle of friends and family. Rules are our enemies, and self-expression is nearly our purpose in life. Of course, this means our floating world becomes a stage and we get treated like trick dogs. We both have identical insecurites and are still searching for meaning in our lives and its never good unless he's there with me. Hopefully he'll come around one day :( cuz I miss him terribly!!!
Work is there. Can you fucking believe it? I sure can't.

Although he made me completely miserable, I don't wish anything bad for anyone and may God rest his soul.
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la vie boheme [17 Apr 2003|10:01pm]
"Living by the rules is another way of hoping the future will be like the past" -Adam Phillips
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well helllloooooo [20 Feb 2003|09:48pm]
Everytime I want to update this sucker I get sidetracked with something else! ARG!!! Well anywho, what's been going on? ALOT actually but I won't bore you with the details. I can honestly say at this point in my life I find myself in a much more different, positive place. Yeah, had to grow up eventually. Don't get me wrong, I'm still good at being bad ;) but I've been getting over alot of my insecurites and overall I'm rather excited at the results I've been getting!

Got the new cd from Zwan, which is the new band from Billy Corgan. I must say, it rocks!!! Its sounds like the old Smashing Pumpkins so of course its gotta be good. Just an observation ;p

What else, uhm that's about it! I better go before someone kicks me off the computer therefore leading me to update a month later or whenever I have time to do so!
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I swear [14 Jan 2003|08:39am]
Some people spend way too much time with their blogs. If any of you ever catch me providing you with a chronological, detailed description of my day which usually consists of a whole lot of nothing, PLEASE punch me in the head. Thank You.
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later [30 Dec 2002|08:06pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Today is New Years Eve. Alas, my least favorite holiday has once again surfaced. It was such a great year as it was the most depressing. It will be hard to say goodbye indeed.

Alright, till 2003.

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merry fucking christmas [23 Dec 2002|08:13pm]
[ mood | infuriated ]

I can't believe we had to work today! Fuck I'm pissed. How much business can we generate between 8 & 12?? Whatever, I'm gonna go bite someone's head off now.

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back in high school again [19 Dec 2002|09:31pm]
[ mood | angry ]

That is just how I felt last night as I was thieving some cosmetics out of sheer enjoyment. It all started when I went to Target to buy some calender inserts for my planner, and since they didn't have the phone book I just took it out from some other planner I saw. I had it in my hands as I was paying for the stuff I did buy, and the lady didn't even notice. Me and my roomie were like hmmmm, lets go to KMART and see what we can steal from there. Oy.

So anywho last night someone broke my window...again...so I'm a little bit more than pissed about that. Even better is that there is a storm approaching and my carseats are gonna get drenched. That's just fucking fantastic.

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what's uppers [29 Nov 2002|11:20pm]
Like WHOA, its been such a long time. I'm so freaking glad this is a four day weekend for me, cuz god knows work is starting to bore me to smithereens. I haven't been going out at ALL lately. If I do its usually to a friends house or to see family. Other than that I'll stay home and read or watch TV...or play video games with Jojoe.

I also went to the doctor last week. My breathing and allergies have gotten really bad and its all because of my smoking habit. My doctor pretty much scared the shit out of me when he said I was showing early signs of emphysema. I haven't touched a cigerette since, and I have a strong feeling this is IT. He mentioned that the drinking is making my skin rashes worse and he suggested I cut down on that as well. Once I did I felt so much better. I haven't felt this alive since I was 10.

So anyways that was that. Hmmm what else. I'm talking to Gianne right now and I think she's drunk. How I don't miss that feeling!

So anywho catch ya'll later.
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*sigh* no matter how hard I try to get away from it all... [18 Nov 2002|10:24pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Hero Guild Name

Villains fear me.

Heroes envy me.

Cin is...

The Late-Night

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8 Mile [09 Nov 2002|10:11pm]
...that shit was tiiiiiiiiiiiiiight! I went with Gianne to the 12:10AM showing and it was jam packed! There were Eminem wannabe's left and right, and to my delight I got to sit next to drunk chinese guy who kept telling me, "Eminem is number one!" Anyways throughout the entire movie my nose was pinched and I managed to get a few chuckles from the audience as I made a comment about the very short sex scene.

The whole movie was great, but my favorite part would have to be the end, which was the final battle; that was pretty much the birth of Slim Shady. It was rather strange to see Eminem tongue tied a few times, since we're all so used to seeing him as a person that's ALWAYS got something to say. :P

Its Saturday night, and I'm home alone with nowhere to go. I bought a few good books so I think I'll go read now :D
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